Trusting God

Trusting God

As a child I
grew up in a home where tithing was modeled. When I became an adult I
calculated my 10% tithe and was faithful to the discipline of tithing. There
were fleeting seconds when I would have thoughts of buying something and not
giving my tithe, but I would quickly take those thoughts captive and I would
give my tithe. I always knew it was the right thing to do. I did not struggle
to tithe, but I would not say I was a joyful giver. Looking back I see I was
extremely worried about money, always fearful the other 90% would not be
enough, often counting the cost of every little thing. I lived in bondage to
money and held tightly to it, even though I gave regularly. My heart was not
tuned with the Spirit in giving. 

In my early
20’s I worked and saved up enough money for my first computer. At the same time
I also learned I needed my wisdom teeth removed, which was not covered by
insurance. One Sunday morning, while I was sitting in a little inner city
church waiting for the service to begin, I was trying to calculate in my head
if I could somehow work the numbers so I could do both. I heard in my
heart,  “Give it to me instead. You are
so anxious about money and it is controlling you.”

So, I wrote
a large check, (at least it was for me at the time)—the most I had ever given
to God at one time. I had such joy in writing that check, such peace in
releasing the control money had on me at that moment. It turned out I had just
enough money left to get my wisdom teeth out, but I had to start saving again
for my computer. That started my journey to learn what the Bible says about
giving and learning how to be a joyful giver. I have learned to trust God in a
greater way, that His word is true, that he will take care of all my needs
according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus  (Philippians 4:19), that I do not need to
fear.

I do not
give because I receive, but I do trust that God will take care of me. Jesus
said, “…Forgive, and you will be forgiven; give, and it will be given to you.
Good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into
your lap. For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you” (Luke
6: 37-38). I have experienced time and time again that when I am generous and
give with a joyful heart, God will provide and I can trust Him. I must walk in
obedience to his Word. Not the letter of the law, but the Spirit of the law.
Not the act of doing it, but doing the act with the right heart, joyfully,
without fear. It is an amazing place to live.

Sarah Marasigan, Elder, Stewardship & Hope Fund Committee

2 Comments
  • Sheryl

    November 11, 2013 at 6:26 pm

    Amen and AMEN!! Thank you for sharing the truth about Jesus and our what our response to Him should be! It’s all about the heart not the correct following of the rules.

  • Robin Ruegg

    November 11, 2013 at 9:43 pm

    My favorite verse when I think about giving. I’ve wanted to do a demonstration sometime of what that looks like–perhaps using oatmeal and a big measuring cup. Measured out, pressed down, shaken together and running over the top of the cup. That’s the blessings God gives to us!