After the Sacrifice

After the Sacrifice

“Whoever
clings to worthless idols forfeits the grace that could be theirs.” Jonah
2:8

“If
you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for me,
you will find it.” Matthew 10:39

Several
years ago, I had a memorable moment with Jesus. I was standing in our home looking out the window with
thoughts and feelings “waging war” inside me. I knew God had asked me
to make a change in my life. But it felt too hard to make. The “life”
I was clinging to was separating me from God. I needed to sacrifice it. Not
just cut back a little, or loosen my grip. No – sacrifice it, kill it, end it,
see it die, let it go, for good, forever. But I didn’t want to.

Through
my tightening grip I felt God’s Holy Spirit speak to my heart. “Heidi, if
you do not let go of this, you will never know what I am capable of doing in
your life.” Tears rolled down my face as I struggled to justify my
choices, rationalize behavior, figure things out, and come up with a better
plan than having to trust God. Trusting God is hard, because I don’t know how
he is going to work. And I don’t get to give him advice on how to work.

The
“heartfelt” conversation continued: “Heidi, you can take care of
your life YOUR WAY, but you will always wonder what I would have done for you
in this situation. You will NOT know me more if you do this YOUR WAY.” I
wrestled in my head and heart. Do I trust God, and see if he will really show
up, or remain in control and work it out on my own?  That day, my desire to know God broke my
grip. I began taking steps of obedience, to let go of “my life,”  trust God to care for me, seek Jesus in the
sacrifice, and find Him faithful.

Remembering
this moment with Jesus has caused me to consider what happened  AFTER the sacrifice:

I didn’t
“love” what I sacrificed so much anymore. I loved Jesus more. Over
time, what God gave me in exchange was so much better: freedom, faith,
healing… And now I have experienced that God is who He says He is, and He
will do what He says He will do, because He did show up AFTER the sacrifice
was made.

Have you
made sacrifices and seen God faithful?

What
happened in your life AFTER the sacrifice?

Heidi
Connors, Children & Family Ministries

 

3 Comments
  • Sheryl Hjellming

    November 4, 2013 at 7:56 pm

    GREAT blog Heidi! And so true! Jesus ALWAYS has the best plan! We just need to trust and obey!

    Thanks for sharing

  • Rex Cooper

    November 4, 2013 at 9:58 pm

    Heidi –

    It’s been a privilege to watch you, "Let go, and Let God"! I never doubted for one minute that he would use you and your incredible gifts to bless the children of our church and the greater Richfield community, but what you have accomplished in such a short amount of time is staggering and can only have been accomplished with complete surrender. You are making an enormous Kingdom impact, keep up the great work!!

  • Shane Vail

    November 6, 2013 at 1:04 am

    Hi Heidi,
    Thanks for your personal message on sacrifice.
    It is EXACTLY what God intended me to read tonight.
    You are a blessing to me and Hope Church.

    Shane Vail