Help My Unbelief
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33 (ESV)
Several years ago sitting in front of a tin shack in the slum I heard a boy recite this poem:
Who is this Emmanuel? He is a teacher. He shows us how to live.
Who is this Emmanuel? He is a doctor. He heals all kinds of sickness.
Who is this Emmanuel? He is a true friend. He sticks closer than a brother.
Who is this Emmanuel? He is the Savior of the world. He is my Savior.
The boy spoke with great personal conviction. All of the things that we think of that provide security had been stripped away. To our eyes, the conditions he lived in were harsh. He was in a class of people with no power and no status. But he had experienced Jesus’ love and guidance in his life, and saw his value in Christ. In that moment he spoke of the only one who is worthy of our complete trust.
I am in a long process of learning to put my complete trust in God. It’s easy to say that I have faith in God, but does my life bear that out? As I worry about the details of daily living, I show my unbelief. Trusting in myself or in others around me can never quite measure up. I know in my head that God is worthy of my trust, and my heart has experienced his trustworthiness and unconditional love, but I still struggle to abandon myself to Him.
My daily prayer has to be: “Lord, help my unbelief. Help me to seek you first.”
Peggy Turnbull, Missions Coordinator